We have a lot of down time now. Waiting. More Waiting. Waiting is Annoying.
On the one hand I want to get back to my life. On the other, my life will not be the same as when I left, and I am not looking forward to that. Honestly I am more than a little scared to come home and hang out with Lea all day long. What will we do? What will I do when she yells at me? How will I handle the tantrums? How long will it be before we can really communicate? How long until it feels normal again?
i am not looking forward to all the down time at home. I don't like it here, and I know I won't like it at home. Lea is doing great and handling the communication well, but I wish we could really have a chat. I wish she understood what I am trying to say. We do great getting the point across, but we can't chat. I can't explain things to her. I can't tell her we can't go to the bathroom in the middle of no where. I can't get to know her when we can't really talk.
It feels like caring for a pet, and I wish it felt like loving a child, but it does not, not yet.
---------- several hours later -----------------
Several hours later ... still feels like caring for a pet. A pet for whom we have finished all the adoption paperwork. We now just wait for her American Visa to be completed - then we can come home. We have all day Tuesday free, and Wednesday we pick up the Visa at 3:30pm and get on the train to Hong Kong at 4:12pm. We can hardly wait.
Having picture trouble again :-(